I Am Nothing Without God
- Chántelle Adanna
- May 19
- 3 min read
A Late-Night Conversation Between Flesh and Faith
When the World Goes Quiet, My Mind Doesn’t
I don’t know if I’m the only one, but as a writer, my mind tends to race at night. Last night, I tossed and turned, reflecting on a mix of questions and revelations that wouldn't let me rest:
How fleeting and precious life really is
How perfectionism robs us of the beauty of the present
How easy it is to neglect our health
How common it is to have a halfhearted relationship with God
How deeply God loves us, even when we forget
How spiritual this life is beneath its physical surface
What it will feel like when my time comes to an end
Whether I’ll recognize my loved ones in eternity
To some, these thoughts might seem only heavy. But I don’t see them as only depressing—I also see them as a reminder of how sacred each moment truly is. Because one day, this will all be over. And then what?

What Will You Look Back On?
When time runs out, what stories will you have created?
What will you be proud of?
What memories will echo across lifetimes and still bring you joy?
How did you serve others?
How did you walk with Christ—and like Christ—despite the distractions of modern religions and false gods?
These are the questions that kept me up. And as overwhelming as they may sound, they have drawn me into deeper communion with God.

Baptized, But Not Broken Yet
Over the past five years—even after being baptized—I’ve come to realize that I didn’t yet understand what it meant to kill my flesh. I wasn’t fully seeking less of me and more of Him.
Now, as I’ve begun to dig deeper into my walk, I’m choosing to be more intentional. That looks like opening my Bible in moments of uncertainty—not only in chaos, but even when I have the smallest of questions. And then I wait to see what God says, in full context.
Letting Psalms Soothe My Spirit
Last night, I opened up to the book of Psalms. And it truly calmed my mind. I’m learning that in our flesh, we will always wrestle with doubt or confusion. But leaning not on my own understanding—and instead depending on Him—has changed everything.
I’m far from perfect. But I’ve started holding myself accountable because I now fully believe:
I am nothing without God.
Self-Made? That’s a Lie.
It’s tempting to fall into the world’s narrative of being “self-made.” To chase what you want, what you deserve, and what makes you feel worthy. While ambition has its place, it becomes dangerous when it overrides humility. I’ve had to admit that I need God in every moment—not just the low ones.
It’s wild how people—even Christians—can mock those who are “too into Jesus.” Or say, “it’s not that deep,” when others take their walk seriously. That kind of thinking is deeply confusing to me.

I Choose Not to Be Lukewarm
Only Jesus knows the true condition of anyone’s heart. But that makes it even more important for each of us to be honest with ourselves. How do you revere Him? How do you love Him according to His Word?
My goal is simple: to be a reflection of His light. I hope that light draws others closer to Him. But I can no longer be passive about my love for God. I’ve seen too much. I’ve been through too much. And He has done too much for me to stay quiet.
Convenience Is Not Conviction
Too many people follow what’s convenient and socially digestible. But let me be very clear, loud, and bold:
I won’t be silent when something contradicts God’s Word.
Make sure you're not just talking—make sure you're actually walking. There are too many counterfeits out here. And if you're not rooted, you can be led astray. Just like I was.
It’s taken me about three years after baptism to begin to truly understand what it means to walk with Christ. Let God be true, and every man a liar.
Speak Up, Even When It’s Uncomfortable
Whether intentional or not, if something doesn’t align with the Holy Spirit—according to God’s Word (which He’s exalted above even Himself)—then speak up. Seek Him. And be willing to hear more than just what feels familiar.
Because when it’s all said and done, the only person you’re deceiving… is yourself.
Final Word: God Will Not Be Mocked
With all love and gratitude, I write this not as someone who has it all figured out, but as someone who is learning to fully surrender.
I am nothing without God.
And I’m finally okay with that.
With love + gratitude,
Chantelle Adanna Agbro
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